Again

 

Again 💔

What do I feel in the aftermath?

I feel sad, disappointment, angry at myself

Knowing that my pattern to push others away is a cycle

Knowing that I want to break the habit but I can’t

How many times have I done this where eventually others leave? 

This is not the first time in this rodeo

But no way to seemingly end this cycle

The cycle just continues

Where or when will it end to where I can keep human connections?

Written January 30, 2024