Ready or Not?

As the time to departure grows closer, different emotions do occur and some of them are hard to sort out exactly what they are so is it fear, nervousness, doubt, concerns, or hesitancy. With a major choice like this, your brain space gets full and when it does, for me I lose concentration and the ability to understand conversations can go by the wayside. But one thing I keep in mind that soon the brain space will start to thin out and then probably something else less radical will take its place. Something else that occurs during a time like this is stress because I am essentially making a huge life change that puts my past completely to the past and keeps it in the past as well.

But it is during times like this, I am reminded by people that I am strong enough. A very good reminder I was given by a friend was ‘there are more people for you than against you and I’m always just a click away.’ Knowing that I have options and even emotions is nice since when I made this decision, I felt like my whole world changed and I became a calmer person inside. On my last week on the job, one of my coworkers told me ever since I made this decision, I became happier and they noticed that change in me. As the Emancipation Day grows closer, I wondered if I would start feeling an urgency to finish up last minute details, which actually never quite happened though every day I spent some time finishing up goals and then once I got to a certain point, I called it done no matter what happened. The ultimate feeling that occurs as the day approaches is the desire to never give up on this dream.

The Beginning

I thought of starting a blog as a type of journal for myself as I go through a new chapter in life. My purpose in doing this is simply to keep track of all I have done and going through as I journey through life. My past is one that probably won't be mentioned much though definitely is the reason why I have entered a new stage in life. My past is one of wondering what age do legal rights starts, being sheltered to the point of wondering what is outside of it when certain topics are off topic but very much part of oneself, and points like that one.

My online name is Penelope. In the state I was born and raised in and still currently living in, I am considered a legal adult by state standards (since the age of majority can vary per USA state) for the last several years. I have a registered nurse license on the west coast of the United States of America in the state of Oregon, which is my final current destination in life.