Ready or Not?

As the time to departure grows closer, different emotions do occur and some of them are hard to sort out exactly what they are so is it fear, nervousness, doubt, concerns, or hesitancy. With a major choice like this, your brain space gets full and when it does, for me I lose concentration and the ability to understand conversations can go by the wayside. But one thing I keep in mind that soon the brain space will start to thin out and then probably something else less radical will take its place. Something else that occurs during a time like this is stress because I am essentially making a huge life change that puts my past completely to the past and keeps it in the past as well.

But it is during times like this, I am reminded by people that I am strong enough. A very good reminder I was given by a friend was ‘there are more people for you than against you and I’m always just a click away.’ Knowing that I have options and even emotions is nice since when I made this decision, I felt like my whole world changed and I became a calmer person inside. On my last week on the job, one of my coworkers told me ever since I made this decision, I became happier and they noticed that change in me. As the Emancipation Day grows closer, I wondered if I would start feeling an urgency to finish up last minute details, which actually never quite happened though every day I spent some time finishing up goals and then once I got to a certain point, I called it done no matter what happened. The ultimate feeling that occurs as the day approaches is the desire to never give up on this dream.


I have learned that when you do make a choice, some choices require a conscious effect to stay in that pathway especially if they change the ultimate course of life. Some choices are immediate and you just instantly have to deal with the consequences without needing to make too much an effort to keep the choice like what you order at a restaurant though you could potentially change your mind after you received the food but you still would end up having to pay for both meals.

Little things are the things that probably keep one in line with wondering which little things that you should not worry about and which ones ought to really be done before moving. Planning ahead is always a good step to do when making a major life choice regardless if the choice is actually moving out of state. The way I plan and think ahead is this: I use a Google Doc to store information and that is tied to your Google Account so that can be accessed no matter what device you are on. Depending on the device, you can even access Google Docs without wi-fi/internet and use it offline. My format of the Google Doc might be deadline date followed by what I want done on that date or by that date and each item is separated by a comma. Then I will start a new line of deadline date and what needs to be done and the cycle continues. I have learn some things will need to be done continually like cleaning a kitchen or making sure your living space stays tidy. Some tasks once you get them done will stay done. Another tool that can potentially be used to keep track of the steps to complete something is by using Google Keep. I tend to use that only if my lists are short or can definitely be bullet point and concise. The reason for suggesting Google products is because they are very portable and secure and do not get tied down to a specific device. Depending on the device, files can be accessed by multiple people especially if you are using let’s say Word Document on Windows.

When I first made this decision and as time went on, I remember asking a human resource if I could do it meaning was it possible. I have learned over the years that there is no shame in asking for help and bouncing off ideas off of people to get their input. The trick for that is finding someone you trust and can rely upon to give the proper guidance or being part of a diverse support system that can give advice from all walks of life.